Rachel Jenae

Stay Close

It’s late.  Very late and tomorrow starts another week.  I sit contemplating what this week will bring.  What does it hold in store. Will He come through. Will He tell me what’s next.  They’re raw thoughts running through my mind as I am ready to drift off into dream land and not think about them.  What does He want to do this week?  What will He do? What will I allow Him to do?

Stay Close.  Stay very close.

That’s all I hear.

It’s a gentle reminder almost nudging me like a mother hen would her baby chicks. Come in closer.  The only way to move forward and in the direction my heart longs to go is to stay close and come closer.  It’s the only way I’ll make it.  It’s the only way my heart will survive.

Doubt comes knocking.  Resistance pulls at my every step.  Questions arise around every corner from wondering minds.  And then I hear it again.

Stay close.

It’s natural to want answers, but sometimes, most of the time, we will not get them. It will only be the echo of our own thoughts and the thoughts of others that comes bellowing back to us.  Thoughts often based more on human reasoning and emotional wavering than truth.  But… we will be guided and directed and led.  That is a promise. That is enough.

This leading will require letting go.  It will require dancing more and planning less.  It will demand crazy obedience.  And it will require staying close. Closer than before.

As John Eldridge writes

Rather than turning back to God, reversing the posture that brought about our crisis in the first place (what Eve set in motion and we have repeated ad nauseum), we continue down that path by doing what we can to secure ourselves in a dangerous and unpredictable world.

When we were young, we knew nothing about Eve and what she did and how it affected us all. So we do not first bring our heart’s question to God and too often, before we can, we are given answers in a very painful way. We are wounded into believing certain things about ourselves. And so every woman comes into the world set up for a terrible heartbreak.

And with every step to try and secure ourselves and get our questions answered by another man or woman, we step away from God and step into believing what the world says. What you think is a simple decision here or there, is simply another step away making it harder to hear and harder to follow.  So He sets out to pursue our hearts again another day.  To win us back and remind us of who He is, and…who we are.

Stay Close.   Stay very close.

Happy Monday.