Rachel Jenae

Get use to it

All this pain
I wonder if I’ll ever find my way
I wonder if my life could really change at all
All this earth
Could all that is lost ever be found
Could a garden come up from this ground at all

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

All around
Hope is springing up from this old ground
Out of chaos life is being found in You

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

You make me new, You are making me new
You make me new, You are making me new
You are making me new

-Michael Gungor
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God has a way of breaking through in the tiniest of ways and bringing change in the biggest of ways.  Typically we think He’ll do the exact opposite.  We expect big things to happen and in our limited minds we can only imagine very small results from our very limited perspective.

Almost like a whisper in the wind you can hear, “Get ready, things are about to change.” They rarely come as we expect, but they are always faithful to come. Then somehow amidst the waiting and wondering there’s a question that begins to grow, weezling its way into our thoughts, ”Can He really make that beautiful?”  That heartbreak, that disappointment, that abuse, those 10 years that seem overlooked and forgotten.  We look at all we cannot see and focus on the vastness of the unknown and then ask it in a different way, “Well even if You could, how long will it take?”  Completely convinced that the God who built the universe in 7 days would have a hard time with any of our problems.

So we set out to help Him.

First, we analyze and reason, then do it some more, certain that at some point we will gain enough understanding and be able to fix the problem or be able to give God some advice. Amidst our analyzing we think of every possible solution and outcome to our situation and in many cases worry and anxiety come to join the fellowship. They feed off each other and as one grows, so do the others.  Doubts and fears begin to carry more weight than the original desire itself.

Then, having reached the place in our minds where thinking has not solved our problem, we choose one of several routes. We may become hopelessly depressed that this is just how life is; full of disappointments and we settle the hope of anything ever getting better. We do what we must do, but our joy is rarely geniune, it’s simply the outcome of knowing how to manipulate this life and those around us.  We hop from one extreme situation to the next trying to live off of the highs long enough to reach the next and avoid those ugly areas by trying to find something that will satisfy the longing.

Or, we get busy. We decide to make ourselves successful in the eyes of everyone we know. We set out to fix everything and everyone. If God won’t make this beautiful today, then I will. Perfectionism and self improvement become our life mission and our prison. Nothing is ever quite good enough though, so we live in a constant state of frustration with our job and those around us.  Striving is worn like a strong perfume that everyone can smell but you.

Hopefully though, we choose another route.  Often chosen as our last resort, but none the less where we submit to walking.  It’s the route that will require all of us, but allows no facade, no manipulation, no striving, no “helping”.  It’s the route that believes all things, hopes all things and endures all things. It’s the route of love.

Love that satisfies every aching, every longing, every desire, with rich, deep joy…and…it completely satisfies!  In love, you’re willing to wait.  In love you’re willing to surrender.  In love, you’re willing to trust.  In love, your willing to believe the impossible, completely blinded by the world’s reality.  In love, all things are made beautiful.

Jesus comes and does what He does best.  Makes things beautiful. Makes something out of nothing.  Makes the impossible possible. Gives you something you never had.  Answers a question you were too fearful to even ask.  Deposits something in your heart you never saw before. Changes a mindset that had you stuck and trapped. Fills desires of your heart. Brings things that seemed dead, back to life. Shows you another option, when you saw no other way.  Helps you believe, when you had lost hope.  And though He may choose to use time to teach you all of this, He also has the power to do it overnight. Beautiful things out of the dust.

It’s just what He does.  Get use to it.